m0ef0e
10-18-2007, 04:27 PM
As the season progresses, I am becoming increasingly emotional. Much like a couple of Chiefs' players, I have allowed the intensity of this season to pierce my heart, allowing a vile blackness to spill forth, staining my posts here with a reeking stench that curls even my own nose hairs. To those I have launched unwarranted insults of intelligence at: I am truly sorry. I have always been the kind of person to wear my emotions on my sleeve but that in no way excuses me for some of the things I have said. There are many other things I have been dealing with on a personal level as of late but again, that is no excuse.
I detest what I have allowed myself to become lately and it truly disgusts me that I have sunk so low as to dismiss other's opinions as folly without taking the time to properly discuss said viewpoints in a constructive and civil manner. As a result of this, I have decided that some apparently much-needed self-reflection has become a necessity in order to prevent this despicable soul-stain from spreading. I will not continue to allow myself to be consumed by irrational emotions no matter how justified I feel my opinion may be. Simply put, it is wrong-- A flaw and personal weakness that has been exposed to me. The fact that I am now becoming so easily riled exposes many vulnerabilities in my psychological armor. This is something I must correct.
It has been said for ages that you catch more flies with honey. This is something that I have seemingly forgotten or have at least allowed myself to be blinded to by my own personal inadequacies. As a result, I must regrettably take my leave for an undisclosed amount of time due only to my own short-comings and narrow-mindedness and not the fault of anybody else. I will be back (soon I hope) but I will not willingly further subject anybody to the venom that currently seems to be seeping from my pores.
I would like to wish everybody here on the crowd the very best until I return. I have made what I consider some very good friends here (even though we may have never met in person) and I feel I have done many here an injustice by lashing out so destructively at those who may also prove to be valuable and intelligent accquaintances now and in the future. I have many things to sort out now-- Not only in my own mind but in the life that I currently find myself in, as well. I can not and will not fail in this. Anything less than success is not only unacceptable, but also incredibly self-destructive. I have seen and know this now and in my departure, I leave you all with two words that will always reflect the true disposition of my heart, mind, body, and soul:
GO CHIEFS!!!
I detest what I have allowed myself to become lately and it truly disgusts me that I have sunk so low as to dismiss other's opinions as folly without taking the time to properly discuss said viewpoints in a constructive and civil manner. As a result of this, I have decided that some apparently much-needed self-reflection has become a necessity in order to prevent this despicable soul-stain from spreading. I will not continue to allow myself to be consumed by irrational emotions no matter how justified I feel my opinion may be. Simply put, it is wrong-- A flaw and personal weakness that has been exposed to me. The fact that I am now becoming so easily riled exposes many vulnerabilities in my psychological armor. This is something I must correct.
It has been said for ages that you catch more flies with honey. This is something that I have seemingly forgotten or have at least allowed myself to be blinded to by my own personal inadequacies. As a result, I must regrettably take my leave for an undisclosed amount of time due only to my own short-comings and narrow-mindedness and not the fault of anybody else. I will be back (soon I hope) but I will not willingly further subject anybody to the venom that currently seems to be seeping from my pores.
I would like to wish everybody here on the crowd the very best until I return. I have made what I consider some very good friends here (even though we may have never met in person) and I feel I have done many here an injustice by lashing out so destructively at those who may also prove to be valuable and intelligent accquaintances now and in the future. I have many things to sort out now-- Not only in my own mind but in the life that I currently find myself in, as well. I can not and will not fail in this. Anything less than success is not only unacceptable, but also incredibly self-destructive. I have seen and know this now and in my departure, I leave you all with two words that will always reflect the true disposition of my heart, mind, body, and soul:
GO CHIEFS!!!