I don't naturally wear a smile either...others make me smile. I try to surround myself with those I know who make me smile, & tend to avoid those who make me frown, haha.
You seem to have many great personality traits Honda...from what I've been able to gather posting with you...including a sense of humor at times. Most girls I know are attracted to a guy with a sense of humor.
I wouldn't give up on her just yet. It could be a bit of low self esteem on your part, since she declined for the weekend...affecting your judgement with thinking her tone indicated she'd be busy beyond the weekend. She did give a further explanation than "I'm busy"...a good sign IMO.
It's difficult on the internet when you only know someone through a PC, and you don't know the second party at all, to give advice. Best any of us can do is speculate based upon our own life experiences.
If you believe you intimidate people for whatever reason, & you've been thinking you need to change that about yourself, well, most times our inner feelings are right. It's a good trait when we can recognize what we may need to change in our personalities. Many people can't do that...rather are only capable of seeing changes they think others need to make for their happiness.
You mentioned earlier you usually didn't have anything to be happy about...well, that's usually not the case for most. We just have to be willing to look at what we do have more positively, rather than what we don't have negatively. I hope that makes sense, sometimes I don't word things as I'm thinking, haha.
Honda...you need to relax and lighten up man. I dont mean any offense by this but you seem pretty tightly wound. Stop worrying about finding a girl. Go out and have fun. You say u never smile and just sit around with your arms crossed. If u think that is intimidating people, then stop doing it. Go somewhere and do something that makes you smile. When you smile, u have relax, and when u relax u have fun. Once you are out doing something that is fun and relaxing, you are bound to meet someone. They will be out doing the same thing as you (similar interests) and you are relaxed (easier to talk to people) and you are having fun so you dont look like the angry guy sitting in the corner. If you keep "looking" for love, you will settle for someone. Let that someone find you!!:bananen_smilies046: