Farewell Crowd
Just want to say I think this may be my last post here.
I've felt rejection all my life from people and thus have long struggled with feeling inferior. Always been single, always been a lonely guy. Felt rejected everywhere including churches. I've gone long periods of time not attending church (including the present times) because of feeling not wanted and accepted.
So it feels like the case here at the Crowd too. I try to reach out and enjoy posting and fun times with everyone here. But the high majority of the time most people here just don't respond to anything I say (whereas they constantly respond to everything others say).
Where it really hurt was when I announced I got tickets for the Chiefs Eagles game. I was so glad to share the news with fellow Chiefs fans here and asked for high fives. But only 3 people replied. It hit home that I guess I just don't fit in online either. Just probably not cool enough of a person in people's eyes. So I had another period of not posting here for a while.
Then when I took that walk on Friday with my Chiefs gear and got all those comments from Eagles fans in my area, I thought oh I gotta share that with the Chiefs Crowd. Plus it was only 2 days before the game and I of course keep getting increasingly excited about that. So I been posting here the last couple days as we approach game time. (I'll be entering the stadium in less than 6 hours now. So exciting).
But I still continue to get little or no response to the things I say. And especially from the regular posters here which is all the more puzzling. I would have thought people would have thought it was cool I am going to a Chiefs game.
I plan to take lots of pics at the game. But am afraid if I share them here only 3 people at the most will acknowledge them (whereas if it was many other people's pics there'd be an avalanche of "Great pics!" and other replies). It just hurts too much.
I love that there's a forum like this for Chiefs fans. It's been especially meaningful for a fan like me who lives a long way from Kansas City and hasn't had much fellow Chiefs fans to talk with. But if the reality is I'm just not wanted then I have to accept it, painful as it is.
Well just explaining what's going on. No bitterness intended. And I'm still gonna be just as excited and ecstatic at the game today and rootin' for our Chiefs are heartily as all of you. So enjoy the game today. May we get our first win and beat the Eagles!
Take care.
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